Drowning 090609

it's four a.m. again
father, forgive me this sin
uncomfortable in this life
I can't put down this knife
I'm carving words in my arms baby
scars are part of my charm maybe
I need the touch of a hand
this isn't what i had planned
I need relief from this life
I wanna slip away into the night
don't wanna see the sun again
but can't get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind
I wish the ocean was warm
I feel like drowning
I'm losing my faith in me
I can't remember the last time i felt free
from voices inside my head
when I taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead
you say I'm out of control
at least i still have a soul
no I don't need your advice
some compassion would be nice
I can't take any more of your pills
they hold my head up but still it feels so wrong
I can't believe the price that I've paid
for this chemically-induced,
perceivably ideal,
take-it-with-a-glass-of-water day
I wish the ocean was warm
I feel like drowning.



-Jay Brannan

Vietnam Images 2

Can Tho, Vietnam



The floating market...


the colors of the land market...



the Mekong River life..

Vietnam Images

Bao Gia Trang, My Tho and Can Tho Vietnam...







Ivory Statues and Snake Wine

Vietnam Memoir 4

No Time To Waste 081212

I went back to my hotel room to freshen up. Then I was off wandering around Bui Vien. Everyone here is ridiculously friendly it’s scary. I searched for a nice place to eat and found café 333, just around the corner. The place was pretty. I sat at the Third level, the terrace, so I could smoke. The food was even more awesome. I ate a double cheeseburger and a watermelon shake, all for less than 5 dollars!

After my epic meal, I decided that I was going to go around the city. This was my only chance, tomorrow I’d be off to the Mekong until the weekend. So I hired a a guy to drive me around the city in a motorcycle nonetheless. Jin was the name of my driver. Perhaps the most perverted motorcycle driver in Saigon. He drove me to the Red Light District, massage parlors and the likes. It was interesting!

On a serious note, he drove me through the Chinese town, Clothes stores, furniture stores, fruit stores and yes, motorcycle stores. Of course, the must-sees were included, the Reunification Palace, the City Hall, the Notre Dame Church, the Post Office and the Saigon River, whew! All that in an hour and a half.

I went back to the hotel and took a quick nap. Headed out to send emails and had dinner in the sidewalk, you heard me right, the sidewalk!

Then it was off to check the night life! It wasn’t all that but hey, that’s Saigon!