to Apple, Sherry, Vilo and Dredz (Letters 080213)

Hi!

First off I wanna apologize for my absence for the past few days. I just felt like going to work was going to be unhealthy for me. Don't worry, I'm not blaming anyone of you for making me sick or whatever, it's just the environment in the office does not really jibe with my emotional quotient right now.

I also want to make clear that I am on sick leave not because I physically sick but because I am dealing with a few emotional and psychological issues. I have sought professional help and I'm gonna be better. Also, I did NOT try to kill myself, well not really, maybe the intention was there, but it was just an emotional-alcoholic impulsive outburst. God knows I love myself too much to kill myself (and I know you guys know this too).

Anyways, I just think that the events that have happened in the office for the past few weeks have really taken its toll on me. That's probably why I don't feel well. Merls' departure has left my "Holiday Bonus" responsibility in limbo, not knowing where to get the money from and how to liquidate it has caused immense stress. C11A's verbal abuse and uncalled-for attitude towards me was a big blow. The incident report I had to do (much to my dismay) has left me a bit guilty, although I know it was the right thing to do, but it sure wasn't easy. And with Mark resigned, made it even worse, it's hard to lose someone you've grown accustomed to in the office, not mention he was a good friend.

What I'm saying is that all these things have really affected me and I feel like I have taken a lot of beating professionally and emotionally. I thought I could handle it all but I guess I am still immature to do so. I guess it's like that in the corporate world, I just learned it the hard way (although indirectly). It's just that I have invested emotionally on these people and these tasks and seeing them leave just like that has been tough. I admire the four of you for being strong about all this. God forbid anyone of you leave, imagine what I would DO if you guys did!

So with a heavy heart, I would like to inform you that I will be tendering my resignation. Not! Hahaha. I'm just kidding Apple. I will be reporting to work tomorrow, hopefully with a better perspective and more vigor (to earn money). No need to reshuffle any responsibilities, I love what I'm doing and I'd be damned if it will be given to someone else. I won't pursue my intention to transfer to DIET as well. Though the position does have a good compensation, the amount is nothing compared to the feeling of being around and working with you four. So I'll see you then. Don't worry, I haven't changed. Although I might be a bit MORE bratty and bitchy!

Thanks.